{"id":49,"date":"2020-03-23T13:25:18","date_gmt":"2020-03-23T19:25:18","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/johnwilliamschwartz.net\/?p=49"},"modified":"2024-12-07T06:16:59","modified_gmt":"2024-12-07T12:16:59","slug":"kate-and-i","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/johnwilliamschwartz.net\/?p=49","title":{"rendered":"Kate and I"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Kate Spade took her life on June 5, 2018 &#8212; Jeanette&#8217;s and my 25th wedding anniversary. Hearing that news made me sad &#8230; and inspired this poem. (I chose this one as my selection to share in my small group at the Songwriters&#8217; Workshop put on by Sara Groves in August 2019, which was a vulnerable and fun experience. They were kind and complimentary, and the group leader suggested a change that I&#8217;ve integrated &#8212; and I think made the poem better. Thanks Michael.)<br><br><em>The quote near the end is from a scene in a C. S. Lewis book that I find particularly poignant. Recognize it? Comment or email me if you&#8217;re curious about it.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<pre class=\"wp-block-verse\"><strong>KATE AND I<\/strong>\nAching\nSo much pain\nSpade separated from heart\nSpade separated from life\nThe ruined soul\nAll around me\nAnd I know it too\nThe lemming flow\nThe groaning\nThe unbearable burden of creativity\n     when it\u2019s not tethered to the Creator\n     life must have a source\n     were Adam and Eve artists?\n          of course\nOh they hid\nOh we hide\nI want to stop hiding\nThese sins are unwelcome flatmates\nWho keep brandishing a rental contract\n     three and four generations\nCan I tear it up?\n\nOh light of the world\nOh gentle sweet breeze\nI want out of this contract\nWill you pay the termination fee\n     it is unaffordable\nPlease draw these blinds\n     they\u2019re made of lead\nPlease lift the sash\n&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;it\u2019s swollen stuck\nMusty and coughing room\n\u201cOh don\u2019t don\u2019t let me go back into it\nDon\u2019t, don\u2019t\u201d\nI\u2019m down to my last card\nIt sure ain\u2019t a diamond\nAll I deserve is a club\nBut for your Name\u2019s sake let it be a heart\nMy heart\nGuard it\nSurpass mind\nThank you \u2026\nOh thank you<\/pre>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Kate Spade took her life on June 5, 2018 &#8212; Jeanette&#8217;s and my 25th wedding anniversary. Hearing that news made me sad &#8230; and inspired this poem. (I chose this one as my selection to share in my small group at the Songwriters&#8217; Workshop put on by Sara Groves in August 2019, which was a [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-49","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/johnwilliamschwartz.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/49","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/johnwilliamschwartz.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/johnwilliamschwartz.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/johnwilliamschwartz.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/johnwilliamschwartz.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=49"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/johnwilliamschwartz.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/49\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":425,"href":"https:\/\/johnwilliamschwartz.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/49\/revisions\/425"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/johnwilliamschwartz.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=49"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/johnwilliamschwartz.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=49"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/johnwilliamschwartz.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=49"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}